im not sure how im gonna organize this part of my site, but im sure ill figure out a way once i have a collection of updates on here!
hay guys sorry i havent updated in a while!!! been swept away in work and personal life and havent gotten the chance to do any neocities stuff. since ive been gone i've developed a caffeine addiction and i had a really bad trip the other day so i will be taking a hiatus from edibles for a while. anyways im trying to order subway on doordash right now and im so fucking frustrated so im gonna rant about it on here since i know nobody on social media will care.
so recently i finally got around to changing my address thru usps so i can have a proof of residence to finally get a new id. a bit personal but whatever. they sent me the mail confirming that im the current resident of my address and it came with a bunch of coupons and stuff for a bunch of stores like idk wayfair and crate and barrel and stores like that but it also sent me stuff for hellofresh and doordash and stuff for food. and obviously i was like oh yeah i wanna do doordash because i hate cooking when im tired and come home from work right. so i come home from work and im like omg i dont feel like cooking right now im gonna try and use my doordash coupon i want some subway and i dont have stuff for subway at home so whatever. so i open the app and put my order in the cart and i run into my first gripe with this fucking piece of shit software. 1.) the coupon is for new users only. WHY THE FUCK DO I NEED TO BE A NEW USER EVERY SINGLE TIME I WANT TO USE A FUCKING COUPON FOR THIS DUMBASS FUCKING SERVICE. EVERY SINGLE TIME I TRY TO USE A COUPON OR I TRY TO USE SOME PROMOTION THEYRE LIKE SORRY!!!! ITS NOT FOR PREEXISTING USERS!!! SO IF YOU HAVE AN ACCOUNT ALREADY FUCK YOU YOU CANT GET THIS SHOULDVE WAITED HAHA!!!! which is the dumbest fucking marketing tactic i have EVER heard in my goddamn life.
SECOND gripe comes when i look at the fucking price without any coupons or anything... so im just trying to order a 6 inch sub with no crazy ass add ons or extra shit like a drink or chips or anything. the original price is exactly $7.77... which yeah thats a lot of a sandwich right off the bat but hey thats just inflation. HOWEVER it gets infinitely worse when after a Delivery fee and a Service fee (not entirely sure what the difference between the two is since the delivery is the fucking service) and Taxes and whatever AND an insanely fucking high tip that they recommend ... 18 FUCKING DOLLARS AND EXACTLY ONE CENT FOR A 6 INCH SUBWAY SANDWICH. THATS MORE THAN DOUBLE THE PRICE JUST FROM TAX AND FEES. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW??????????????????????? that is FUCKING insane im sorry but it is. YOURE TELLING ME THAT THE SANDWICH COSTS LESS THAN EVEN CONSIDERING USING THE APP???? Fuck you. LITERALLY fuck you dude. Im surprised they dont fucking charge you because the most recent shit you took wasn't the right shade of brown according to them.
FINAL GRIPE NUMBER 3 COMES IN when im trying to make a new account to use the coupon. Every. Single. Fucking. Time. i try to make a new account it doesnt work because it makes you [put in your phone number. IT JUST STRAIGHT UP DOESNT FUCKING LET YOU USE THE COUPON. WHY GIVE THEM OUT FOR FREE THROUGH THE UNITED STATES FUCKING POSTAL SERVICE IF YOURE JUST GONNA MAKE IT ESCAPE ROOM LEVELS OF MENTAL GYMNASTICS TO FUCKING REDEEM IT? You need a phd in fucking rocket science just to figure out how to use a FREE doordash gift code GIVEN BY A FUCKING FEDERAL AGENCY. IT PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF THESE GREEDY ASS MOTHERFUCKERS THEY JUST DIDNT GET ENOUGH MONEY DURING THE PANDEMIC HUH??? MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY IS ALL THEY THINK ABOUT DAY AND NIGHT . Someone needs to pull a luigi mangione with the ceo of doordash and if it doesnt happen soon i swear to god its gonna be me cuz this is just pure fucking lunacy i dont even fucking CARE. Im so done. I might just make myself some frozen french fries im pissed the fuck OFF. shit like this is what makes me want to quit my job and kill myself because the world is just so FUCKED... all this over a SANDWICH.
And with that, I wish a Merry Christmas to all, and to all a VERY good night.
Hi uys im really high and listen ing t the beatles. right now my favoritesongs are this boy if i fell and till there was you . right now im listening to if i feell because its the song john wrote for paul on the valentines card . And its the gay song. I love itso much and i really like it all os os os soomuch its sogood omgomgomgomgmgomgomgomgomgomg. i love johns singing voice and pauls too and theyre so talented i wish i could go to beatles concerr t but i cant becasue um 2 of themare dead andthe other ones are ugly now. so i dont want to seethem. i love it so muh and right now im high like isaid and if i close my eyes and rock back and forth it feels like im at a concert for real and im so happy !!!!!! I can hear all the little details in all the songs and i can hear everones voice individually and its so cool and it really feels like i am at the concert!@!!! im so happ y !!!!!!! But i need to go to bed soon because ihavre work tomorrw ad habve to feed my roommates cat )shes on a work trip. In EUROPE@!!!!!!) okay ummined to finish this song (and rock back and forth) and then go ot bed. Goodngith evveryone. Hope youre having a good year so far . also i really like just like starting over gby john lennon separaeately and i like it because its about paul #mclennon
sometimes i feel bad about being autistic. i feel like when i talk about mny special interests im being annoying and like im bothering people and i feel like whenever i talk weird because i dont know how to socialize normally im also just being annoying. it happens a lot with johnnys family where ill want to express that i like something or am excited about something and i end up just saying something really weird in a weird voice like "Yay ... I am so excited/happy!!!" and then kinda like clench my hands together or something cuz i do that to stim often and then theyll laugh at me or something or just be confused and it makes me feel like they think im stupid or something. a while ago me and johnny went to a while elephant party with his dad and i couldnt participate much because it was so loud in the house and so me and johnny just hung out outside the whole time and his dad kept trying to get us to come inside until johnny had to literally go up and tell him "hey she has autism and its so loud in there shes really overstimulated she cant rn" and thankflly his dad understood and everything but it really just made me upset because it made me feel stupid. ive always been like that where i cant participate in parties and stuff like that because of the noise and because of just being embarrassed and feeling awkward the entire time im there and it just makes me feel like an alien kinda. i wish i could get professionally diagnosed but i dont have the money or any insurance like that from work and whatever so people would understand "oh, shes not a fucking weirdo, she just has autism" because im so tired of everyone i know besides johnny acting like im either exaggerating or that im just weird. i bet my coworkers genuinely think im from another planet because i seriously dont know how to talk to them or to customers and i genuinely act like ive never interacted with a human every time i open my fucking mouth. i literally go out of my way to avoid talkikng to anyone because im so bad at talking to strangers. i really want to get diagnosed so people come to me with the expectation that im fucking slow instead of talking to me like im like any other non autistic person. i hate having to pretend im not autistic every single day and its so exhausting. i want a day where i can go to work and theres a giant sign taped to my forehead saying "IM CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDER" and people leave me alone and just let me do my job and dont make smalltalk with me about something fucking stupid like how their sisters cousins twice removed's dog died 3 days ago and now they have to buy a sorry for your loss card and unfortunately im the one that has to ring them up. literally just fucking kill me at this point im begging you
wow..... it is officially 2025.... that is so crazy!!! it almost seems like a fake number. my new years was really fun and i got to sleep over at johnnys house last night and celebrate the new year and also the one year anniversary of us being engaged!!!! we got all dressed up and danced to the playlist we were listening to when he originally proposed and he took my ring off my finger and pretended to propose again hehe. it was really really fun and he was so so sweet hehe. we did that after midnight but before when we watched the ball drop me and johnny and his mom drank some like flavored apple/strawberry/grape cider thingies and it was really good i almost drank the whole strawberry one by myself. also today i convinced johnny to watch a hard days night with me... we didnt finish it because me and him and his family went out to eat but it was still fun hehe. i freaked out and pointed at the screen every time john looked at paul and was literally screaming when they started playing "if i fell" because if you dont know irl john wrote if i fell on the back of a valentines card he gave paul. So ummmm yeah hes a fucking FAGGOT (IM BISEXUAL I CAN SAY IT I SWEAR) but anyways yeah i freaked out over it and johnny did too LMAO. we went to outback and i got the most tender deliciouys beatiful steak ive ever eaten in my whole life... was kinda small but thats because the other sizes were super fucking expensive. they bullied me into getting medium rare instead of rare and i will never fall into peer pressure like that ever again because i oh so badly want to try a rare steak (i was a well done person up until like a year ago) and i just ohhh my god. Yeah baby. they let me take home the bloomin onion they got and in the little takeout box johnny drew mclennon on it and i think the server saw and made a funny ass face. Poor girl doesnt get paid enough for this shit. Anyways just wanted to ramble about my day because it was a really really nice time and i had a lot of fun ehhe. Johnny if ur reading this i love you so much and i still cant believe weve been engaged for a year!!! kisses you so hard.
also update from my last entry: i was in fact still high from the edible i took the other day and it was a smart decision to call into work because i literally felt like shit. but i am okay now and will be more careful with edibles i was just being kinda fucking stupid abt it.
^ heres the mclennon outback takeout box btw. also johnnys dad saw it and i had to explain to him what yaoi was. fucking humiliating
i ended up taking today off and tomorrow from work because i dont feel good and also tomorrow is new years!!!...... i took and edible last night with johnny over facetime lmfao and I am somehow still feeling the effects i dont know (according to my calculations like 16 hours ago...) i also got my periodn today and i feel like i might eexplode. so itold my manager i got sick from work (since its been going around and all my coworkerds have been sick) and she said it was alright and said "Ok feel better" She is funny ovet text. I feel bad though because im scared i wont have enough money for rent :((( i will try to get more hours in later this week or next week or something !!!! i wanna talk to my manager abt it because it wuuld really help me out and ive been meaning to as k about overtime for a while /. anyways thats how my day has been okay bye.
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i fucking loce the beatles somuch. when i take edibles all i do is sit there and listen to the beatles and watch the help music video over and overa again on loop while i rock back and forth . im literally a mclennon truther they were so fuckjig gay. they literally wrtoe songs for each other all the time and john only married yoko because he was jealous of paul and linda. i litealy love the beatles so much. BEATLE FUN FACT: The fifth beatle is yoko ono. ANOTHER BEATLE FUN FACT: that was a joke. The real fifth beatle was brian epstein who was their gay manager who john had sex with and im not kidding. They went to barcelona together in 1963 right after johns wife gave birth . What a gay dick. The last words john ever said topaul in person were "think about me every now and then, old friend" which was the title of the song that he made a demo of on a tape recorder that got turned into now and then the last beatles song ever that they used ai to make and stuff :( He literally was so fucking gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay they were both so gay gayg ay EVEN YOKO THOUGHT THAT HE WAS CHEATING ON HER WITH PAUL LITERALL Y
found this pic of the beatles on my dead moms facebook a while ago,., ithink its funny. i love the beatels
today has been a fairly good day so far even though i only woke up like an hour ago. took a shower and now im on facetime with johnny while he eats apples and watches house... i dont want to go to work today because i hate walking in the florida heat to get there. i am not excited i just want to stay home and play my puter all day!!! its okay though because i only work til tuesday and even then i might leave early or take the day off entirely because its new years and i wanna go to johnnys cuz its our engagement anniversary (btw were engaged hehe he proposed last new years.)